I'm in search of my true identity
I don't want a life like yours, please.
I just want to be me
I don't want your imposition of happiness
Your eurocentric ideologies
Of beauty or morals, my apologies.
But I was raised better. My mother taught me
Kindness and love no matter the weather
To rise above the trends on Twitter
For there is divine purpose in my timeline
A conquest I began several lifetimes
Ago though, so far back I forgot my limelight
Couldn't recognise it within the night sky
But meditation plagued by procrastination,
Cured by concentration will save our god forsaken nation
Who have forgotten their origin.
In the deepest crevice of space
And somewhere between now and the infinite,
Lies our power to become unlimited like the people of Kemet.
We have forgotten ourselves in the chase for wealth
A deep green mist of envy stagnates our mental health
Propagated by capitalism in this simulated reality
Curated by our mentality poisoning our morality
What a tragedy.
Just leave me alone for I'm not lonely
I'm just in search of the real me
He wasn't on TV screens or Instagram selfies,
I even checked your Facebook feed, fed up of consuming meat,
He wasn't there at those raves and house parties.
I found him in solitude and solidarity
Within and without, he didn't quite fit modern society.
I found him lost within pages reading quietly
Remembered his greatness in Malcolm's autobiography
Learning about himself in research and self study
Basking in the bounty of physics and chemistry
But he was no alchemist just a boy trying to make history
For he has no interest in gold or the riches of your world, see
I found myself in the deepest pool of self reflection,
Among the rooted causes of my emotional reactions
Rejoining and rejoicing in what once was disconnected
Let me live my life as the universe intended.
- Alfani Ndayishimiye